Quitting the Cancer Stick

I'm on day 3 of the cold turkey quit. So far........misery. No seriously, its been like constant anxiety attacks. Yesterday was the worst but today has been alright. Everything was driving me crazy yesterday. And I couldn't stop crying. Seriously... bad times. But Yeah, today is going better. I thought the cravings were gonna be the worst today, but its about the same as before. Hopefully they go away completely soon. The nicotine is suppose to be out of your system in 3 days of not smoking [or chewing if thats what you prefer] I haven't given in at all. 3 days of 0 cigarettes. Yay for me! I've came very close to giving in but I'm still hangin in there. I kinda feel like a crack head.....I mean I've never smoked crack or anything like that before, but I've seen people who have and that's kind of how I feel. Spazzed out. But I've been drinking the normal amount of coffee that I always drink and I read that you only need like 1/2 the caffeine you had when you smoked. So maybe thats why I'm tweaking out, lol. I can't help it thought, there isn't enough things to keep me busy and keep my mind of smoking. So I've been drinking coffee and chewing gum and well tryin to keep my hands busy. Maybe I'll go paint or something now.
Yeah that's about enough of my non sense. Anyone out there in the process of quitting, I'm feel your pain!!!

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This Momentous Day

Not one day in anyone's life is an uneventful day, no day without profound meaning, no matter how dull and boring it may seem, no matter whether you are a seamstress or a queen, a shoeshine boy or a movie star, a renowned philosopher or a Downs-syndrome child. Because in everyday of you life, there are opportunities to perform little kindnesses for others, both by conscious acts of will and unconscious example. Each smallest act of kindness - even just words of hope when they are needed, the remembrance of a birthday, a compliment that engenders a smile - reverberates across great distances and spans of time, affecting lives unknown to the one whose generous spirit was the source of this good echo, because kindness is passed on and grows each time it's passed, until a simple courtesy becomes an act of selfless courage years later and far away. Likewise, each small meanness, each thoughtless expression of hatred, each envious and bitter act, regardless of how petty, can inspire others, and is therefore the seed that ultimately produces evil fruit, poisoning people whom you have never met and never will. All humans lives are so profoundly and intricately entwined - those dead, those living, those generations yet to come - that the fate of all is the fate of each, and the hope of humanity rests in every heart and in every pair of hands. Therefore, after every failure, we are obliged to strive again for success, and when faced with the end of one thing, we must build something new and better in the ashes, just as from pain and grief, we must weave hope, for each of us is a thread critical to the strength - to the very survival - of the human tapestry. Every hour in every life contains such often unrecognized potential to effect the world that the great days for which we, in our dissatisfaction, so often yearn are already with us; all great days and the thrilling possibilities are combined always in this momentous day.

Quoted from the book :

My first blog

No idea why I've started this; I saw it and was just like "hmm I'll make one".

Maybe because I'm obsessed with doing random things.

Not really sure what to write just yet. I'm sure I'll be venting soon enough though.

It will be interesting to see how this turns out.

So yeah, to anyone who reads this, sorry its so short and boring. I created a blog without really having any ideas in my head. I need more coffee.


xoxoxo